My teeth hurt. I was at the dentist before christmas and since then my teeth hurt every night and I have to sleep with pills. This sucks so much. I just woke up and the pain is killing me. I was at the dentist last week and she didn't find anything. At least she said that. But she can't tell me that 4 weeks of pain is normal. I'm gonna kill her! This is just so annoying and painful. I going to another dentist today. There has to be something. I can't take this for the rest of my life.

I have to go to school now. But I don't know if I can stand the pain all the time. It's spreading over my whole face. My ears are already hurting and I'm getting a really bad headache. Why me? Duh. I hate this.

...and almost just as long since i last posted here. Sorry about that. I'm really sorry, but i had so much stuff to do. I'd never have thought, that my senior year would make me so buisy. It's simply steeling my time. Seems to me like the last 6 months went by in a blast. Really awkward. Kind of annoying. And somehow frustrating.
But I'm thinking positive: Another 5 months and it's all over. That will be like the biggest relieve ever. I think I'm gonna sleep for weeks. That'll be great.
So. Like i mentioned school sucks as always. It's just stress stress stress. But I cope fine. Besides school I'm just really happy with my boyfriend. He is still the greatest person on earth and I love him to death. He's the one that made these last 6 month brilliant after all. We're gonna marry in 2011 (November 11th^^) and we're gonna call our first son Ambrosius. Do I have to say more? Probably not. I'm just really really happy and that's all.

I have some problems with my computer at the moment,  but still I hope that I'll manage posting at least once a week (though I hope it'll be more frequently). I'll also write as many comments as possible, I promise. I know I always promise that, but it just pisses me off that my stupid computer always crashes the second i click the "send" button under a comment and I have to write the whole thing again. But this time I'll stay strong.
I changed my layout, by the way. I hope you like it. It's Anthony Kiedis of the Red Hot Chili Peppers.

So I hope everybody here's fine.
Love,

Nicole

I'm on page 269 of Breaking Dawn and till now I hated every single page of it. Honestly Miss Meyer what is wrong with you?! This book totally sucks, I really could cry! I'm so desperate! I was so excited about this book and now it turns out to be the worst thing I've read in ages! I just can't believe it! What a stupid plot idea! Duh! Stupidstupidstupid! How can a author destroy their own fandom with something stupid like this? I'm not even finished yet but i doubt that it'll get any better. Boyoboy...

By the way sorry for the lack of updates. I was on a spontaneous vacation for the last 10 days (no not really, just had a lot of stuff to do^^) and i didn't have no internet and stuff. I'm gonna start commenting on you people as soon as possible. I'm very sorry. How is everyone?

Anyway. I'm gonna try to finish this damn stupid book now without getting a heart attack. Ugh.

Lot's a Love!

EDIT: NEW HEADER!

I just updated my profile. I added these two banners:

Hey there. I just finished my exhausting shopping tour. I'm dead. It's way too hot here for things like this. Feels like the desert. But anyway it was a lot of fun and I spent a lot of money. Yay for summer sales!
My boyfriend's coming home tomorrow! I am so excited! I missed him so much...so finally I can see him again. Tomorrow's gonna be great, no matter how hot it is. Yay for love!

I also want to share my newest addiction with you.

• The "Undead" Betsy Taylor Series by Mary Janice Davidson. It kind of reminds me just a little bit of Twilight, because it's about a female Vampire in our present time. (Though that's about all the books have in commen) The plots are very funny and tensing (and sexy) and I really love reading the books. I've read the first 4 now, bit there are already 7 of them. I really recommend them to fans of Sex and the CIty and Twilight. It's the perfect mix! Somewhere in between expensive shoes and beautiful Vampires...

1. Author's Website
2. "Undead" Series (English)
3. Betsy Taylor Romane (German)

So, I guess that's it for today. I still want to watch Stardust on DVD again tonight. I just love the movie! I hope you're all fine.
Lot's of Love!

Snagged from diamond_muffin

( 80 questions about me )

Okay, maybe not. I just got a new layout and made a new header with my self-made pictures from Paris. What do you think? I kind of like it for the moment, but I might change my mind real quick, as always. I also made almost al my entries 'friends only' now. I think it might end up a little too risky if have the world can read the nonsense I write. So yay me 'cause I got a little more privacy. Which now brings me to the important things.

My life.
My life is going on pretty well. School's out and I couldn't be any happier about it. I really need this break. I have to chill a little. Peace! No really, i'm getting old. Almost 18 and I need a little rest now.
Anyway.
My exams went quite well so yay for my Abitur next year. I was in Paris for a week with my class and I visited my grandma for a week. And now I'm back home and cleaning everything up, including my live-journal. I already finished cleaning my room plus rearranging my furniture. I fixed my bike today and sorted out my old school stuff. Tomorrow I'll buy a new musicstation for my iPod and I'll have to start learning for my car exam. I'm really excited about that. And scared! I hope I'll pass...
So.
I guess, that's it for now. How are you people doing? I know I'm really lacking on comments but I'll try my best later this week. I hope you're all fine and happy and enjoying yourselves. Okidoki.

Feel hugged!

Today, I made some Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen banners. I adore him/them. I love Rob as Ed and I'm not ashamed of it. (Yes, Gaspard was my first choice, but Rob is brilliant too!) No hate mails please! Thanks. So here we go:

1. ROBERT PATTINSON
2. EDWARD CULLEN (TWILIGHT)
3. BANNERS (4x)
4. TEXLESS & WITH TEXT!
5. FRIENDS ONLY BANNER (1x)
6. CREDIT WOULD BE NICE
7. ADD ME FOR MORE

( ROBERT is EDWARD! - 4 BANNERS! )

So, I decided not to go for the Twilight movie madness. I'm way more exited about the upcmoing book anyway. So no movie posters, but instead a bookcover made by me for breaking dawn. It's nothing special. But I'd like to share and comments would be love to.

• BREAKING DAWN BOOKCOVER
• Use and share, if you want
• Please credit!
• rockme_hippie (which is me, of course)
• <3 Shoot shared by neo_valkyrie
• Models unknown
• Textures all made by me, the font is from dafont.com

( BREAKING DAWN BOOKCOVER - this is what i want it to be )</div>

Title: Motives
Rating: G
Characters/Pairings: Rosalie, Edward, mentions Rosalie/Emmet, Alice/Jasper and Jacob/Bella
Summary: Rosalie’s POV! After Edward and Bella part, Rosalie explains her motives for helping Jacob win Bella...and breaking Edward’s heart.
Any warnings: It’s my very first fanfiction and I’m from Germany, so probably the writing is terrible. I’m sorry for that. It’s also very much not canon!
Disclaimer: Everything belongs to Stephenie Meyer.

( Read 'MOTIVES' - my first fanfic )

My first fanfiction. Sorry, if it was too terrible to bear. Helping comments would be love.

Damn damn damn! My life is really getting worse every single day. No wait! Every single minute! It's unbelievable. Hello? Note to self: Go jump off a bridge. I really will. It's terrible. I Can't believe it!

I just came back from school. We're still having a week of summer break, but I had to go to get my schedule and my new teachers. My Tutor, actually. You would never ever believe who it is. He's the worst guy I ever knew. The worst 'thing' (can't even call him a tecaher). And that stupid little jerk is gonna be responsable for me for the next f_cking 2 years! Hello?! I wanna die. Now! I just don't get it. How do I deserve this? Damn. I really hate it. I could cry. I could laugh. I just can't believe it...

By the way: We're 18 students in our Maths 'Leistungskurs' and we're...well 15 boys and 3 girls. Great, huh? Me and one of my best friend and one stupid bitch. And 15 guys. I'm gonna die die die. And their all just dorks. But in the negative way! I'm gonna kill myself. or they'll kill me...anyway. This is the end, I'm never gonna get my mature this way. Duh. F_uck. I'm calling my best mate now. He'll have to trigger me or something.

See you. or not. Who cares.

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...Elvis Presley! Yeah, I must confess I love Elvis. I like most of his songs, and I liked his attitude back then (though he was dead all of my life) but I read some books about him (everybody knows I read almost every book there is a bout musicians, including countless autobiographies) and yes, he was a good guy. And since at least every second famous person takes drugs at some point in his life, I can't even blame him for that.

Today he has been dead for 30 years now.
That kind of depresses me...hmm.

I thought a post in honor of his remembrance would be appropriate. Just so we don't forget him, anyway, he did in fact invent the biggest part of Rock'n'Roll (which is in my opinion one of the most important things about him).

Well that's it actually. This is just an Elvis Presley - We still think about you! -Post.

Yeah I do have a thing for oldies. The music of course but also the musicians. I just fell in love with Mick Jagger, I have an affair going with Bono and I'm indeed married to David Bowie, as you all know. Okay I'm scaring myself right know. Holy, I have thoughts way beyond insanity. I bet it is this German summer. No, wait...there is no summer in Germany. I forgot. It always rains here and it is f*cking cold outside. IT'S AUGUST YOU STUIPID F*CKING WEATHERMAN OUT THERE! Gosh. I can't believe it! Everytime i wanna go outside it's raining. This is depressing me. All my friends (and I usually have a lot) are somewhere in Italy, France or whatever and I'm sitting here (IN THE RAIN!) waiting for school to start. I think I need another therapy. Okay, i better get a grip on myself.

Like my mom said:
"Nicole, if the weather annoys you so much, than just stop pressing your nose against the window."
Okay, mom. I'll stop that now. Doesn't change anything anyway.

Instead I'll go into town tomorrow (cause yeah in GERMANY shops are closed on sundays) and get the CDs I requested last week. I was shopping exactly 4 times in the past 7 days. These are the worst and most boring holidays in my whole f*cking 16-year-old life! I need all those people to come back and distract me. I'm really getting suicidal. Hello?! Gosh...okay. Enough of complaining.

Wait! One more thing! I have to complain about my 12-year-old sister now. Or else I'm gonna kill her.
Guess what she's been listening to the whole entire day?
Right! NENA! I hate that stupid...okay, just to mark my words: one really breathtaking mind-sweeping quote out of her new favorite song:
(I'm really gonna kill her if she keeps on hearing this at full volume)
"Willst du mit mir gehen, willst du?" (Now repeat that in your head for about 11 minutes and you get what i got the past 24 hours. Nice, ain't it?)

save.me.please.